And it's all because of this motherfucking Health Project and I have, not to mention my own stupidity. SERIOUSLY, I'm the stupidest fucking person I have ever met. And I have met some pretty stupid people. Why do I even have to exist? Why do I even have to have a mother? I do not deserve a mother because of all the shit I put her through. Why the fuck can't I just be a good person, who doesn't always fuck up and make mistakes all the time? Why the fuck can't I make my own decisions, and think rationally, and clearly, and solve situations. Why do I even fucking exist!?